The year is not yet a month old and there is so much new again. As expected, I got my first emails from the colleague with the title "Ms. Behrend", which feels really good. But not only that, a very dear department head colleague read my last blog and asked me about it. To make it short, he is so nice and switched to Nicole. That also feels good, both in emails and in meetings. One of his colleagues told me yesterday that she had a horror in the last meeting when he spoke to me as Nicole. She thought he had chatted. But then she would have seen my total relaxation. She asked me yesterday, after a mail that I signed with N, how she should address me and this time I just answered Nicole.
I am aware that some colleagues will surely be confused when they read in emails that I am called Nicole or Mrs. Behrend or sign with Nicole Behrend, but my hope is that this is gradually over the next time dissolved in course. In any case, I am pleased that there are such careful, open minded and cool colleagues who accept me as I am.
In addition to the whole topic of adressing me as Nicole, there was another drastic moment this week. I have defined different stages for myself how I “travel”, from Christian to neutral to Nicole Light and Nicole. Lately I would say for myself that I was in the bank as Nicole Light. Yes, some make-up, more feminine clothing, but it wasn't what I see for myself as 100%. Yesterday was the first day on which I really have been in the bank as Nicole 100% after my own standards. For me, this included a slightly different make-up and a blouse that couldn't be anything else, but also the fact that I was traveling with a handbag instead of a notebook bag. There was also something else, you can think of it or maybe discover in the pictures, but I was complete for the first time.
I was not nervous, tense or whatever - I felt good, confident and that, even though I was in front of my complete department for the first time like this.
There was the great feeling of going straight from work with Melanie and a dear friend on a wine without having to "transform" me again only the cherry on the cream.
I am excited to see what the next time will bring.
I hope you too and until then
All love
Your Nicole
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