I know it sounds crazy, but at some point I started keeping track of when I was in public as Nicole. To be precise, it was mid-2022 when the number of my trips to freedom increased significantly and I just wanted to have fun and see how it all turned out. The previous years were quickly reconstructed and the first half of 2022 was still easy. Since then I have kept the list regularly.
In 2022, it wasn't yet natural for me to get ready, grab my handbag and open the apartment door. Back then I looked out the window at the street and listened to see if anyone was using the stairwell. Accordingly, I started counting the days on which I left the apartment and not just for the trash. When I looked at the statistics at the end of the year, I was thrilled. From 2017 (my first trip to Basel) to 2021 I “increased” to 3 days, then in 2022 it was suddenly 21 days.
I once wrote about Ying and Yang, it sounds like 50/50 and I was still a long way from that. Even in 2023 with an incredible 101 days, I was still a long way from 50%. Many people certainly perceive this differently because of course I always post as Nicole and my twin brother no longer makes a big appearance online. A dear family member often told me that I was usually Nicole anyway. It wasn't quite like that.
Of course, there were many more days during these years, for example because I worked from home. But then I either didn't have any appointments with video, or only had appointments with colleagues who knew about me. That's why I didn't count them. This changed a little at the end of 2023 and again significantly in 2024, as I wrote in the last post. So I decided to count the days that I work from home additionally. But even without these days, I have approached the ying and yang almost to the point. Overall it has shifted to 2/3 versus 1/3. I could never have imagined this. Like many other things, of course.
Why am I writing all this? 2024 could be the first year in my 55 years that I will spend the absolute majority of my time as Nicole. To make it even clearer, this has the potential to be the year in which I spend more time than I have in my entire life. I can see it in the statistics, but I actually can't believe HOW blatant this statement is.
How do you see that, how did you perceive it? I am excited to find out.
See you soon
Your Nicole
P.S.: The picture is from today's weekend shopping
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