Last time I reported that I'm increasingly wearing makeup in the home office. To be more precise, it's actually like this every day now. I vary the intensity of the make-up, the choice of outerwear, depending on the appointments that have to be made that day, but de facto it is always a base make-up and 99% of the time a scarf with the top. What's more, I've had gel nails all the time since the end of November, which means I've also been going to the office. Of course not in red like they were at Christmas, but the baby boomers aren't really inconspicuous either.
Why am I telling all this? Without knowing how my image appears on other people's screens and how aware of my surroundings, I wonder how much people notice. I'm wondering because I've never been asked about any of the details described above. Please don't misunderstand me, I enjoy the freedom I have achieved. But I just wonder if they don't notice, ignore it or accept it. Maybe I'm thinking too much again. Maybe I should just accept it as it is and enjoy continued freedom. Of course the whole thing doesn't have to be discussed and I don't want applause or approval, but because no one says anything, I can't, I can't really classify myself. Will someone come along at some point and say to me “That’s enough, you’ve really exaggerated” or is it just like that now and is accepted, tolerated or ignored and it doesn’t matter how much Nicole shows up.
When I look back and see how much has happened in the last few years, how much I have changed, how I have found my path, my style and the composure and self-confidence I have built up, I am always amazed. Of course, this development not only depended on me, but also depended a lot on the fact that I received feedback from those around me from which I was able to learn and draw my conclusions.
I know, a lot of questions, no answers and no great experiences, but that's what's been going through my head over and over again for the last few weeks. Next time it will be more positive and less thoughtful - at least I'll try.
Until then, all the best
Your Nicole
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