Right at the beginning I should put something straght. No, I'm not a genetic woman. Even if it costs to say/write it so clearly and distinctly, I am a wanderer between the worlds. Every world has its justification. Neither world can exist without the other. Maybe it's a bit like matter and antimatter or yin and yang. However, it took many years, not to say decades, to come to this realization and at least accept it to some extent.
This time was accompanied by fear, hiding, a guilty conscience, anger at myself - in other words, many negative feelings that were countered by only a few positive ones. I don't want to say that this is balanced now, but at least it's a little bit closer. I'm beginning to accept what I could never change and will never be able to.
Next time we will see how it all came about.
Stay tuned,
Your Nicole
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