My grand cousin Kati put the flea in my ear. She really wanted to finally get to know Nicole in person and her mother too. That's why I should come to the family reunion this year. I had already immediately agreed to some crazy ideas or had them myself, but I wasn't completely enthusiastic about this idea from the start. Had my self-confidence got muscles like this? Did I really have to "do" this to my family, especially my father? The rest of the time I didn't live completely as a woman either, so there was no pressure at all according to the motto "You only see me like that from now on.". On the other hand, it was an essential part of me and of course this part also wanted to be recognized by the family. I could imagine that my cousins would take me positively, but I wasn't so sure about the other potential participants' reaction or how they would deal with it.
For my birthday I got a beautiful dress from my Amazon wish list from my father and his partner. Of course, the family celebration would have been exactly the right occasion to put it on for the first time. But unfortunately my discipline wasn't enough to get rid of the last few kilos for the right fit. Since my wardrobe now contained a few pieces that could also be easily combined, finding the right outfit would not be a challenge.
The closer the day of the meeting came, the more often the doubts came. It wasn't the nervousness of previous trips but just the question of to do or not to went through my mind. During this time I received a lot of approval and support from very nice people, thank you very much for that. It was unusual to pack all the things and utensils for the trip to Berlin, but it also helped me to get used to the idea.
Since we still had a lot to do on Saturday before the guests arrived, I started my personal preparations on Friday evening. To be precise, I painted my nails. I did this with Dad around and it was a lot less weird than I expected. Also the fact that I ran through the house on Saturday with blue glittering nails without being completely dressed up was more like at home, where that happened more often.
Getting ready was just like at home, and when I went down the stairs, to my surprise, I wasn't really nervous, even though I was about to face my dad. He looked at me, took me in his arms and said he had to hug me right now. Not much was missing and I would have cried. Luckily for my makeup, I scraped very close to it. I was a little excited when the rest of the family rang the bell and I let them in. My cousin said she saw my mother standing in front of her. That was a huge compliment for me at that moment, it used to annoy me when in former times someone on the phone said I sounded like mom. The family reunion was business as usual with Nicole. It was also my first time as the hostess, and I really liked the role.
It were abselutely wonderful hours for me and I'm glad that Kati made me do it and that I dared. I have a great family ❤️
See you soon
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Nicole
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